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I am so sorry for the loss of your Christopher. 💗 Sending love to you and Kristen and family.

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Such a beautiful remembrance of Christopher and as well a privilege that you shared your own journey and grief in this awful time. Much love Nicole. ❤️

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Thank you, Kathy.

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I didn't expect to cry this afternoon, but I am absolutely falling apart reading this. I am so, so sorry for your loss, Nicole. I can't imagine what it's taken for you to write this beautiful remembrance. And I can only hope that my nephews know every second of every day how much I love them. ❤️

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I am sending you my heartfelt condolences for the tragic loss of your nephew.

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Thank you, Briggie.

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Death is part of life as your beautiful homage and deep felt grief signifies in this very heartfelt piece of writing testifies. I feel for you. As I am contemplating letting go of the physical fact of possibility losing my oldest and dearest soul sister to cancer

My life

With us

Has always been

A love affair

We were the lovers

We never had

Now you

Are on a separate journey

One I cannot be

With you on

In this life

I always wanted

To be with you

Not without

We promised jokingly

What we could not predict

Nothing is forever

But

I cannot

Imagine my life

Without you

Being the same

My eyes

Will be looking for you

Around the bend

In the road ahead

As I travel alone

Looking for your hand

In mine

Like everything in my life

Letting go

Before I was ready

I have never been ready

For you to leave

This earth before me

Yet here I am

It is our lives

Our being

Through thick and thin

Keeping our faith

Now

There is only today

I cherish each moment

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Oh Nicole, what a beautiful tribute to Christopher and also an astute acknowledgement of the tragedy and confusion and overwhelming sorrow of suicide. I'm glad there was so much natural beauty around you after you found out - sounds like those are the kinds of places that Christopher also loved. I'm so sorry for you and all your family :( xo

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Auntie Nicole, I am so sorry and saddened by your loss. While I didn't know Christopher personally, I am sad and feel helpless to find any words of comfort for my grieving family, you included. Christopher was born the same year as Brooke. I can't even imagine your pain. I wish I could embrace you in my arms and hug your sadness away. Your beautiful words, Molly's poem, the Remember Him prayer and the photos are stunning tributes to your lovely nephew, Chris. No one will ever know why, or had any inkling that this could occur at this point in young Chris's life. His grandmother, my mom told me he was thriving in his new life in California. What a tragedy. For you and Kristen, may his memory be a blessing! I love you my lil' bookend.

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Thank you, sister Ilene!

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